New Xanga.. If u kno me well enough.. u'll find my new one on the list on the left...<---- If u can't find it... Well.. It's not meant for u to read it.!!!  

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JIMMY!!!! Hope u had a good b-day last night.... May God Always Be With U!!!!

AHH>> this is sooo messed up!! Can't change it bak to normal!! This is God's way of telling me to STOP!!!! I've wasted sooo much time on this, kinda sad!^^ Even tho mine is not half as pretty, or often visited as others.. But true! SO i'm going to give it up for awhile, get my life on track~. I feel like I'm gettin dumber everyday, we had a PSAT pretest.. yea. didn't go very well... I feel soo ashamed ~%~ 

SOOO!!! I QUIT XANGA@-@.. No one comes to visit unless i tell them to anywayz.. This is pointless... There are somethings which bother me in a great deal, but it's life!! Cuz I'm no where near perfect, yet always compared to the good ones, pretty ones, strong ones, smart ones, and the so called perfect ones.. Making myself look like some psycho.. i give up!!!  Sometimes I wantta give up on life, cuz i dunt see the light, it's all darkness.. *it's kinda sad that after a whole 50 some days of having this new xanga i'm bak to where I started.. The sadd sadd entry i wrote at the begginning.. After soo many ups and downs, the happy and sad, the crazy and the heart-felt truth.. this comes down to it!!!  In school, such a cheery face i put on, yet every glare, every stare, every look i get, is a stab in the heart^^  I ask for forgiveness to everyone who I have offended, everyone who cared, later disapointed in me... I"m sorrie..

Current Mood: grumpy, tired, sleepy, feeling stupid, envious (of someone), mad (at someone), pissed (at someone), like (someone), feeling sorry (for someone), happy (for someone)... yea... SOoo.. mostly negative, but wat can i do...

auvoir,

God Bless u all & Luv u always,

~JL~

* Wouldn't it b sad if i come bak to check this after a month and find I didn't get any eprop watso ever?? ..I hope i get some eprops!!!

OKIE>> YEA>> my angelfire site is soo screwed up.. have to make a new one.. therefore.. all the pics i haf that i put on before are.. let's say... inaccessible or non-viewable.. BLAHH**.. this one i'm trying to fix.. at least this entry.. and the pics before.. maybe if i had a good day, i'll go redo all of those.. haha.. maybe we'll see!~

Some pictures I took while I was at the beach ^^ Isn' this pretty??? I luv the ocean, I luv the sky!~! We sat right by this little creek.. hehe.. I should put this as my wall paper... Should I ???...

Well.. I took tons of pic this weekend when we went up the Sears Tower.. hopefully i'll get the time to put those up!~@~ Until then.. let's jish enjoy this beautiful scenary... Can u believe I took this pic?? hehe...

Hey ppl

^^I GOT MY BRACES OFF!!!!!!!!^^

hehe.. soo happy!!! yeshyesh. got'em off on Monday during 5th hour... muhahaha... OHH .and guess wat? the next day- Tuesday, was Picture retake!!!^^ Can things be more perfect!! soo I get to haf my Junior pic without my braces~~ sooo happy*_*.. haha..lol

Yes.. I decided to put up a more cheerful entry. since the ones before r all soo depressign!!! SOOOO>.. THANKS FOR EVERYONE WHO LEFT EPROPS LAST TIME!!!! It always feels so good to get feedbak from the ppl I luv*V*... yepyep~~~

This week has beenn.. i dunno, weird @_@.. Other than the COOL braces off and Pic retake.. it's jish a normal week filled with H.W. and things... O..*thinking of exciting things tat happened..***Nah.. nothing^^ haha.. School's blah. I guess Junior year can't get any better than these few weeks, so I gotta suck it up and DEAL WITH IT ~@~

OH..a few SHOUT OUTZ here!! to all the ppl I care about and love, who has influenced or touched upon my life these days!! 

God- I thank God for helping me through my year, and taking care of all my friends..

Andy Chang- Thank U SOo much for accepting me for who I am.. And help me be closer to God...Thanx for helping me with my SAT's, my late night essay editing, and just for saying Hello, and how I am doing when I get online!!!

CUTIES~

Helen- HEY!! I dunno if u still come and read.. But u kno u r always gonna b bestest friend.. I'm sorry I moved away, but i'm always gonna b here when u need me.^^ Hope school is good... *u'll always receive the Longest letter & card during ur b-day!! hehe U KNOW IT!!!

Jeanne & Vicky- U two girls r the Coolest!!.. THanx for introducing me to Christ.. U guys r always so patient and understanding with me.. I'll see u guys during Lunch *winkwink*

Christine- HEY GIRLIE!!.. haha.. It has been my pleasure to live so close to u.. I cherish our friendship.. and U kno tat!!..Stay strong Chrstine, live life to the fullest.. AND ooh!! SLEEP ^^

Jenny- hehe..^$^ soo many classes with moi.. hope u r not tired of me!! I'm glad we get closer every year.. ESPECIALLY this year~!~.. U've been a great friend, and I'm glad we always work out our emotions!! hehe.. remember, *ur secrets r always safe with me*

Cynthia & Wailen- hehe. see u guys for a period or two.. IT's fun being ur DOUBLE"S partner Cynthia!! I won't ditch u this year!! promise~~ Wailen.. OUR LOCKER RULES!!!-- *sorrie about all the F4, and will be ANDY RODDICK pics!! hehe..

Meghan & Michelle- HEy!!!! I barely see u guys, except when Meghan rides with me..!! But it's kewl, We should talk more.. We had soo much fun during the Summer Michelley, I hope u dunt forget u haf a friend who lives ride across the streeT!! Meghan-- IT's been fun driving u to school and home, We actually get time to talk and catch up on the day!!!

Cathy M- hehe..Draco addict..!! i'm glad we got closer this summer and kept up our friendship this year!!.. wonder who brought us closer??*wink* haha.. but yea.. HOpe everything is ok with u!! Call me when TROUBLE rises again.... *-*

Angela H & Kuo- hehe.. two Angelas.. Barely see u two.. Be happy girlies!~~ Me luv u guys...KUO--STay HAPPY alrite? and DUNT be toooo skinny.. make me look bad when i stand next to u!!  HSIEH-- hey..!! booboo that we dunt haf any class together this year..I think u got enough of me last year!!

AMy Huang- HEy.. i dunno how we get soo close this year.. Jason? or Chinese school? or Badminton? or Church? or car rides? haha. i dunno.. but it's good .. u r kewl..

Vicki, Tiffany L, Fangyi, Esther, Alina, Joyce, Cyndi, Doreen, Margaret, Chen, Vania, Nati "shrubs"*hehe*, Kaidi, Michelle---- I luv u guys soo much!!!! Stay happy and STRONG>.. *Muahhh*

Studs~

Tuan & Adnan-  Hey.. hope u guys still come and read.. It's been fun those 3 years of life.. I'm glad i got to really kno u guys.. hehe.. Come to Chicago and visit me !!!!!!! *miss u soo much*

Peter- hey u! Glad we became friends, Stay True and DUNT be a chicken *u kno wat i mean!!

Tony, Aaron, Jason- Glad we became friends this year. U guys r Cool.. except u guys r ALWAYS together.. kinda freaky!! :D But yea. all good.. HOpe we stay friends for a long time!!

Josh- Thanks for always being here to help me when i'm stressed, u r soo kind and helpful!!! hehe.. whenever u need anything.. u kno where to find me!!!

Jake- Jake Jake Jake..... haah.. u dunt come by my class to say hi anymore.. poo.. but yea hope u had fun at Winter last year with moi!! hehe.. I think the salt and pepper and cheese thing u did at dinner is FUnny.. MEan, but FUnny!!!.. But yea. haf fun with Kaidi at H.C.

James & Pat- two funny kid!! haha.. Hope u guys enjoyed the car ride and the "anxious-to-get-a-ride to-go-home-so-James-wouldn't-get-whipped" party before school started.. lol.. tat was some FUN times.!! yea.. U guys r such good friends to me.. even tho u haf ur moments of being a JERK!! But yea. Pat, it's fun being ur lab partner, always rushing our lab and hw during lunch, lol.. yea.. HOpe u dunt bring my grade DOWN toooo much.. *jk*

Andrew O, Jon, Vince, Frank, Sherman, Tyral, Thona, John, Jimmy, Jerry, Matt & Andrew =.= -- I'm glad we're friends, some of u I see everyday in school, Some i won't see for a couple of months.. Stay Tru!

ALRITE>>> tat's it for today. I think i've been typing and putting in lil animes for awhile now..!! hehe.. I truly hope all of u feel as happy as I am that we're friends ..!!! And I hope we all treasure our Friendship!!!

*Quarrels between friends are God's way of testing the TRUE friendship!!* -- dunt u think soo?

Tat's it for today,

Luv u always & God Bless,

JL

EPROP ME!!!!!

Isn't this the cutest pic? i haf nooo idea wat it says, but IT"S SO KUTE!!!!

Sigh.. yea.. life's cruel these days.!~@~ ALot of my friends r sad or depressed about stuff... I hope they r alrite.... Truly...*~*....I hope they can be HAPPY>...

Yea, everyone's talking about H.C.,  Alot of my friends got asked.. I hope they haf a fun time!~!.. yea.. I'm not going, cuz I think it's dumb to go stag *from past experience* And I only want to consider going with these two guys..!~!... Who r they? One most of u already know.... haha.. THat guy himself included!! But we promised each other to go next year.. haha **which is too far to talk about**... The other one..? nah.. can't say it... u guys kno me..!~!.. i'm not those kinda girls who jish tell the guy about my feelings...so it's a SECRET>!~SIgh*.. will "HE" ever know? I dunno.. Why do I always end up like this... ?// liking someone without ever letting them know..??.. sigh*. I guess i'm stupid at these things!!!  YEA. it bothers me tat my mom always ask if anyone's asked me yet..  and it's always NO!!!.. sigh*..

Yea, jish today.. I heard alot of ppl r going... POOO>..!~ I hate being left out.. but wat can I do? nothing..... Jenny and I planned to hang out on tat day... I hope my parents will let me.. Cuz Oct.18 is my dad's birthday!~!.. .So prob going out tat night is gonna b hard.!~!

haha.. did I sound depressed above?... EHh.. I'm not tat depressed. Frustrated from time to time about H.C. questions.... But other than tat i'm good... I've been very hectic week....Cried alot, at home and in school...(tony called me a crybaby) Sigh*.. dunt wantta b like this... But alot happened this week,emotionally... i'm stressed.. There's nothing anybody can do ^^ I need someone.. I need someone to lean to, to cover under, to be understanding.. I guess God can do this.. *But most of the nights I fall asleep during my prayer.. ^&^ Sigh*.. So I need someone.. I'm opening up my arms, I'm asking! Praying! HOping someone can silently b here for me...In the mean time, just hope  next week it's gonna b better!~    After this week, i figured out something... KNOWING THE TRUTH IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN SEEING THE LIES!~ *altho truth hurts like HELL*

^^tat's it for today..!~!..

Luv u guys always,

God Bless u!!

JL

*here's some pic for me to ENJOY>.!~!... AHH!~

^^ They will always remain my favorite group@@

He'll always remain the Cutest guy!! AHH...